Monday, January 25, 2016

Tip Toeing Back

I'm ready to tip toe back into the blogging world.  Not quite up to speed but I do miss my online conversations, blogging friends and reading my favorite blogs.

I have had conversations with some who wondered where I went but for most of you this will be new.

My Mom died on Dec. 21 at age 95.  She lived in Oregon.  She lived a great life and was really quite active until the last few months.  She was in the hospital and made the choice to stop treatments and go home.  I arranged for hospice to take over her care.  That was a blessing but it was still hard to lose her.  Very hard.

 I was in Oregon for awhile.  As executor of her trust there was much to do.  Arranged her burial, organized a "celebration of life", emptied her small apartment in assisted living,  closed bank accounts, cancelled credit cards and on and on.  Of course there is a huge pile of paperwork yet to do.  I don't know if any of you have been the executor of a trust but believe me if anyone ever asks me to serve again I will run the other way.

The past few months have been so hard.  First the loss of our mountain house and the contents. Many of the contents were things I inherited from Mom when first she moved from her home to a senior apartment and then when she moved to assisted living last June.  I lost all those things she gave me.  Now I've lost HER.  I'm feeling quite bereft.  

Some days it feels like my life has changed so much in the past 4 months that I hardly recognize myself.

Onward, one foot in front of the other.  Tip toeing.  That's all I can do.


  1. I can empathize with you as my mother was 95 when she died 2 years ago Thanksgiving. It _is_ hard. I am so sorry for your loss.

    I'm glad to have you back and hope your time in blogland helps your spirit.

  2. So sorry you have suffered another big loss. Slowly, slowly things will move forward again. Hugs, Valerie

  3. Thinking of you. May your memories of your mother bring you comfort in the days to come.

  4. Good to see you back here. A pale pink rose is just the perfect picture to accompany your post. Glad you're tiptoeing back. We've missed you.

  5. It was so nice to see YOUR comment on my blog, and to have you tip toeing around Blogland again.
    So very, very sorry to hear about your Mom passing. I have been down the same road and through the same tough have all my prayers my friend. I would love to tell you it will be easier TOMORROW, but we both know different.

  6. I'm so glad you are back...if only to put your toe back in the door. When I first learned of the loss of your mother I immediately thought of how you had just lost your mountain house. BUT I had no idea that much of what was in your mountain house was also your mothers. You have had a very bad year! For sure I am sending good thoughts your way!

  7. I have been watching your blog everyday for signs of posting, and I am so glad you stopped by mine so I know you are okay.
    I am so so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers.

  8. Dear Darla, what a lovely sight to see you here today. The pink rose is so sweet - hopefully a sign of better days ahead. So glad you are tip toeing back after such awful times. My heart goes out to you. Hugs, P.

  9. Oh Darla, I feel for you. It is bad enough to lose a parent but to have other bad things to deal with as well is very difficult, as I know from my own life. Of course you will get through it and returning to blogging is a good step along the way to restoring the inner sense of balance. Good luck!

  10. I'm thinking of you and wish for you comfort in this time of loss. I have been there.

  11. I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I know you have some wonderful memories to help you through your sorrow. Sending gentle hugs.

  12. So sorry to hear about your mom! My folks were in a car accident last May and my dad died instantly (94 and was a blessing with his health deteriorating). My mom was in and out of hospital and rehab (almost lost her due to neglect at a rehab) but she's okay now. My brother was the one flying back and forth from Minnesota to Florida. Being the executor he had to deal with the death, the accident, the hospitals and rehab has been endless. I have just an idea of all that entails and am glad I don't know any more than I do, I guess.

    You have had to deal with so much in such a short amount of time. Losing your mountain home, the things she gave you, and now your mother. It will take time. *love and hugs*

  13. Darla, I am so sorry that you have lost your mom. How very sad. I know how hard it is to see your parents go. I still miss my mom and I think I always will. When I read your post I thought how hard this must be for you so shortly after you lost your mountain home, but I didn't know that your mom's things were there as well. That makes it even harder.
    I'm sending you friendly hugs down to the Bay.

  14. Sweet, sweet rose Darla.
    You have been trough a lot.
    My mother chose me as her guardian for the last years of her life. It nearly killed me ( everything needed to do and the connection with her ). We never got along. I had a nervous breakdown after her funeral.
    However, your situation is and was ( at the same time ) totally different. You had a beautiful relationship and you did more than you perhaps knew you were able to do.
    So relieved to have you back : ).

  15. I'm so sorry to hear about losing your mom. I lost my mom eight years ago. They remain in our hearts always.

    Take care, and do something special for yourself now and then. I think our moms would like that. :)


    1. forgot to mention, this white and pink rose is simply lovely. :)